Lately, my Little Lady has started to enter the separation anxiety stage. Many days she firmly believes that she must see me at all times. She will often be playing perfectly happily on the other side of the room from me and yet notice the second I step out of her view. Cue instant sobs until I come back into her line of sight. Right now, she needs to see her mama or daddy (or, thankfully, grandma or church nursery ladies) in order for her to feel safe and that all is right in her little world. If she can’t see us, she instantly becomes unsure and fretful until she can see us again.
Thirsting For God
Earlier this week I stepped into the kitchen to make a smoothie for breakfast and she started crying the second I went around the corner. I was only about 10 feet away, but it didn’t matter to her if I was 10 feet or 10 miles away. In her little mind, I was gone. I popped my head around the corner to say ‘hi’ and she smiled until I went back around the corner. I finished making the smoothie, walked back into the living room, and she instantly became the happiest baby you’ve ever seen. To Little Lady, everything became okay again because her mama was with her.
The thought popped into my head that her very strong need for the presence of her mama or daddy illustrates what thirsting for God looks like. However, I often go through large parts of my day without even thinking about God. I go about under my own perceived power, thinking about what is best for me and how I can make that happen. In my mind, I act as if I deserve credit for the things going right in my life and so easily blame others for things that are going wrong. This is such a wrong way of thinking!
Life Is a Gift From God
I am breathing because God has given me physical life. I have my husband and daughter because God has given me those sweet gifts. I am able to walk into the kitchen, pick up the blender, and make a smoothie because God has granted me good health. The trees outside my window provide a beautiful backdrop to look at all day because God provides them with the rain and sunlight they need to thrive. The list goes on and on.
I often act as if I don’t need God. This is such a lie! I need him more than I will ever even understand. Little Lady longs for the presence of her mama and daddy. I should equally long for and depend on my God.
Seeking The Lord
I’ve spent some time this week thinking about what that looks like. It looks like setting aside time each day to spend time with Him by reading His word. I can’t deeply know my Savior if I don’t spend time with him. It looks like getting together with believers to encourage each other in our faith. It looks like becoming more intentional in prayer, especially prayers of thanks. Often, I am much more quick to pray about things I want or need than I am to thank God for his many blessings, or to just talk to him about whatever is on my heart. It looks like remembering every day that I am a sinner saved only by the grace of God. I am no less sinful or more deserving of God’s grace than anyone I encounter during daily life.
I am no means perfect at any of those things. But, I have been praying that God would continue to transform my heart and that as I seek the Lord, I would grow so in love with my Savior that I can’t help but long for God and talk to him throughout my day.
An Old Hymn
There is an old hymn, written in 1872 by a young wife and mother from New York named Annie Hawks one day when she wondered how anyone could live without the Lord. The chorus was added by her minister, Robert Lowry. Almost 150 years later, this hymn is still sung.
The lyrics are as follows:
“I need Thee every hour, most gracious Lord; no tender voice like thine can peace afford. I need Thee, O I need Thee! Every hour I need Thee. O, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee.
I need Thee every hour, stay Thou nearby; temptations lose their power when Thou art nigh. I need Thee, O I need Thee! Every hour I need Thee. O, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee.
I need Thee every hour, in joy or pain; come quickly and abide, or life is vain. I need Thee, O I need Thee! Every hour I need Thee. O, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee.
I need Thee every hour; teach me Thy will, and Thy rich promises in me fulfill. I need Thee, O I need Thee! Every hour I need Thee. O, bless me now, my Savior, I come to Thee.”
I want to be aware of my daily, hourly need for God. I can’t live life under my own power. It just doesn’t work. Like my Little Lady longs for her mama, I want to long for my Heavenly Father.